It's 5th period on Thursday, May 19th. There are only 11 periods between now and the end of my career at Uni. I've had friends cry because they'll miss it here, I've had (and been a part of) friends celebrating the end of our time here, and I've had friends already get nostalgic about times past in this building. As for me? I really don't feel all that different.
I still feel like the big goofy kid that came into this building five years ago. I take school a little more seriously now, I've grown 7-8 inches and put on +50 lbs, but I still feel the same. I still make the same kind of jokes I always have, I still take most things lightly, and still I mess around a lot.
I guess what I'm wondering is, should I feel like I've changed? Or like leaving here is a huge deal? It doesn't feel like it is right now. It feels like another summer vacation.
Maybe I'll feel different when it's all said and done. I don't think I ever foresaw this day even getting here, high school has felt like an eternity. But I've built a base of friends over the last five years, something I haven't really had before now, and I've been challenged every single day. Sometimes I haven't exactly appreciated that, but now that it's all over, I think I can say I've done my best.
I guess what I'm attempting to say is that it hasn't quite sunk in yet. I can't believe it's almost over, that five years have past, and that in three months, I won't be coming back to Uni. I won't be seeing the people I've grown accustomed to. I won't be in this silly building we all make fun of. But I will be off on my own, making my own decisions, making new friends, and working hard as always.
Tomorrow is going to be the beginning of the end of my career at Uni. In some ways I'll miss it, and in others I won't. Uni has shaped me for better or worse, and I will always be grateful for that.
